Yucks lah

I’m about to clean my house so this will (hopefully) be quick. I have four bedrooms! But I don’t want to move to a smaller house!

I work freelance now. While some friends would describe me as aloof I am downright unfriendly at this job but it’s not really because of survival. It’s simply because I don’t give a flying fuck.

Then recently some woman at work has been trying to make friends with me. I am easygoing I think when the going is easy. But when it’s complicated or things start getting shitty I don’t like it and will start ghosting. I also don’t really like people who aren’t worldly and DON’T know it. Or when they think the way they do things is the only correct way to do things. You do you la!

So maybe a month ago she asked if I would like an item. Like normal mostly well-adjusted adults I asked questions. What was it? How much would it cost? Bla bla bla. She said she could get it free and she’d bring it when it got to her.

When the thing came there was a whole huge story about how she had to get someone to procure the item and it was not free after all. So now I’d have to pay her $20.

I don’t know how to articulate this properly without sounding like a jackass but here goes: the Javanese word my mom used to describe excitable behaviour was ‘sisilan’. Java is huge so maybe even if you are a Javanese you won’t know the term. I find this woman’s behaviour sisilan. Firstly you offered something out of nowhere. Nobody asked for it! Secondly you talked a big game about getting something for free because of connections. Thirdly if I wanted to swindle someone out of their money it would definitely not be for $20. Why shouldn’t it be for a larger amount? I think some people have shitty parents so they turn out shitty and when they become adults they aren’t aware of their shitty behaviour so they just don’t correct it. I had some sympathy for her because nobody seems to like her at work but sometimes you haveeee to have herd mentality because if a lot of people dislike someone there is a huge problem that you may not see yet. Most of us have only 1 or 2 people who just dislike us for no reason. I’m sure it’s not the case for her.

Anyway it’s not the amount that bothered me. It’s the rubbish drama I didn’t ask for. Then she got me lunch after that and got mad when I transferred her money for my lunch. I don’t normally care if people like me or not so while I don’t want to be acquainted with her I wouldn’t want to abruptly cut off contact because I foresee a lot of drama that I would have to deal with.

Stop this fuckery la.